It will end tonight... I look forward to my next period of normal life.
The Physical science paper was crazily hard. Especially the chemistry. I memorized all the physics formulas so it was quite easy but the chemical compound names killed me. The MCQs were easy quite easy though, and section C too, but the parts where I had to balance chemical equations or write them was totally irritating. I got a headace just trying to picture all the possibilities and I wasn't even sure whether I got the chemicals right in the first place. I also forgot the components of methane (although it's not like I had anything to forget in the first place). Luckily, the academic exams are over. Now it's all for July.
I will start tonight. I will pull through.
Friday, May 9
Thursday, May 8
8th May 2008
To commemerate my last normal day for months as a student.
The maths paper was killer. I guess they realized that their past papers were too easy and wanted to test us on our speed and accuracy instead. We had two papers. Both were 45 minutes short. I finished to first one in about 42minutes, the second in slightly less than 40minutes(+the 5minute disturbance). I guess I underestimated the paper at first and took my own sweet time. Yes, time is sweet. It has to be treasured, not rushed through. Well imagine my panic when I realized there was less than 10minutes left and I hadn't even done the last question. Anyway, I sped up for the second paper and had time to do some finishing touches for my graph and was able to check about half of it(by checking it I mean redoing it mentally, it's much faster and more accurate that way). I hate the way they're asking us to label everything as though they're [mentally challenged] and need guidance. Well they obviously don't, so why are they wasting our time?
The life science paper was a relief though. It was the easiest so far here if I'm not wrong. I noticed some tricks throughout the paper regarding the various nucleotides, but if they have to resort to things like that to catch us off guard they're really helpless. It's not like I'm asking for a harder paper though. I like it this way. It seems I placed my confidence in the wrong subjects.
I will miss blogging I guess. Once my life gets screwed up again, which is also partially my doing by being so afraid of pain and being so enthuitaistic unenthutiastically. Hmm... I'm not going for any holidays during the holidays. That can't be helped I guess. I chose this 6 year path to send my childhood to hell.
The maths paper was killer. I guess they realized that their past papers were too easy and wanted to test us on our speed and accuracy instead. We had two papers. Both were 45 minutes short. I finished to first one in about 42minutes, the second in slightly less than 40minutes(+the 5minute disturbance). I guess I underestimated the paper at first and took my own sweet time. Yes, time is sweet. It has to be treasured, not rushed through. Well imagine my panic when I realized there was less than 10minutes left and I hadn't even done the last question. Anyway, I sped up for the second paper and had time to do some finishing touches for my graph and was able to check about half of it(by checking it I mean redoing it mentally, it's much faster and more accurate that way). I hate the way they're asking us to label everything as though they're [mentally challenged] and need guidance. Well they obviously don't, so why are they wasting our time?
The life science paper was a relief though. It was the easiest so far here if I'm not wrong. I noticed some tricks throughout the paper regarding the various nucleotides, but if they have to resort to things like that to catch us off guard they're really helpless. It's not like I'm asking for a harder paper though. I like it this way. It seems I placed my confidence in the wrong subjects.
I will miss blogging I guess. Once my life gets screwed up again, which is also partially my doing by being so afraid of pain and being so enthuitaistic unenthutiastically. Hmm... I'm not going for any holidays during the holidays. That can't be helped I guess. I chose this 6 year path to send my childhood to hell.
Wednesday, May 7
7th May 2008
For the sake of another post to satisfy your needs to monitor me.
Chinese paper was terrible but I didn't feel nervous at all. I knew what to expect before it started. First section would be easy. My memory never fails me when I require it. Second one would be tough. I can't be bothered memorizing all the sentences. The meanings would be enough, but I won't be able to place the words in the right spot due to the fact that I don't know the type (verb, noun, etc) they are. Cloze passage would be a matter of inference and luck. Just pick the toughest word there. Comprehension depends on the situation it is dealing with and whether I understand it. They're interesting. Like other languages, a code to be broken with known bits of information. Capture the meaning attempted to convey, and it's yours. So I'll pass. The first section will assure me of that. Anyway, I finished the paper in 50+minutes/1hour. Too busy writing the answers for the comprehension. Sorry but I can't resist a chance to philosophize, especially in chinese. A challenge.
The geography paper was freaky. I finished it in 50+minutes as well. I wrote six sides. Used up all the writing paper provided. I don't get how people can finis in 20minutes, just like the history paper. It was same people for both. I trust you get what I'm implying. I wrote the sides backwards in my hurry to complete all my points. I'm sure they will be able to tell though. No. I do not think the paper was easy. I burnt out my fingers trying to speed up the rate at which I was writing. It is some coincidence that the people who said it was easy also were among those who finished in in 20minutes.
I trust that I will finish the maths paper tomorrow within half an hour. Maths isn't something where you have to elaborate on. Trust. I have to write about that someday. It has to be...clarified.
Chinese paper was terrible but I didn't feel nervous at all. I knew what to expect before it started. First section would be easy. My memory never fails me when I require it. Second one would be tough. I can't be bothered memorizing all the sentences. The meanings would be enough, but I won't be able to place the words in the right spot due to the fact that I don't know the type (verb, noun, etc) they are. Cloze passage would be a matter of inference and luck. Just pick the toughest word there. Comprehension depends on the situation it is dealing with and whether I understand it. They're interesting. Like other languages, a code to be broken with known bits of information. Capture the meaning attempted to convey, and it's yours. So I'll pass. The first section will assure me of that. Anyway, I finished the paper in 50+minutes/1hour. Too busy writing the answers for the comprehension. Sorry but I can't resist a chance to philosophize, especially in chinese. A challenge.
The geography paper was freaky. I finished it in 50+minutes as well. I wrote six sides. Used up all the writing paper provided. I don't get how people can finis in 20minutes, just like the history paper. It was same people for both. I trust you get what I'm implying. I wrote the sides backwards in my hurry to complete all my points. I'm sure they will be able to tell though. No. I do not think the paper was easy. I burnt out my fingers trying to speed up the rate at which I was writing. It is some coincidence that the people who said it was easy also were among those who finished in in 20minutes.
I trust that I will finish the maths paper tomorrow within half an hour. Maths isn't something where you have to elaborate on. Trust. I have to write about that someday. It has to be...clarified.
Tuesday, May 6
Reach Your Goals. What Then?
How will it be? A world foreplanned and foretold? The future known- life in eternal bliss. Will life have any meaning then?
What are we working for? World peace? Happiness for the rest of our lives? Immortality? What if we achieve that? Think about it. What will we strive for when there is nothing left to do? It is said that we create work for ourselves, how true... and how necessary. Enjoyment cannot be without hardship; those who do not seek pain feel their own sorrows. It is only after hardships that we treasure a day, a normal day, one without anything extraordinary happening, one without pain.
Yes. I said a day. Life in eternal bliss carries no meaning. What is the use of a mind being built for the sake of pleasure alone? We want fates, destinies, futures and these cannot come with just pain or pleasure alone. We want our own lives, where our futures are our own, not those planned by others. That is what I want at least. You can be free to lead your own life. Whatever you believe in, it is yours and yours alone. Dispute me on this. I don't mind. It is your life after all. As long as you are satisfied.
So we keep going. On and on. Will this never end? More goals are set when old ones are reached. Peace is disputed again and again. Your dreams will always be there; the result of reaching one is another one. It seems as though we are lost. We are as long as you think we are. We are not as long as you think we are not. It is that simple as long as you percieve it as such.
I'm done. It's wearing off. Who is this post directed to? There are clues. I'm sure some will know.
What are we working for? World peace? Happiness for the rest of our lives? Immortality? What if we achieve that? Think about it. What will we strive for when there is nothing left to do? It is said that we create work for ourselves, how true... and how necessary. Enjoyment cannot be without hardship; those who do not seek pain feel their own sorrows. It is only after hardships that we treasure a day, a normal day, one without anything extraordinary happening, one without pain.
Yes. I said a day. Life in eternal bliss carries no meaning. What is the use of a mind being built for the sake of pleasure alone? We want fates, destinies, futures and these cannot come with just pain or pleasure alone. We want our own lives, where our futures are our own, not those planned by others. That is what I want at least. You can be free to lead your own life. Whatever you believe in, it is yours and yours alone. Dispute me on this. I don't mind. It is your life after all. As long as you are satisfied.
So we keep going. On and on. Will this never end? More goals are set when old ones are reached. Peace is disputed again and again. Your dreams will always be there; the result of reaching one is another one. It seems as though we are lost. We are as long as you think we are. We are not as long as you think we are not. It is that simple as long as you percieve it as such.
I'm done. It's wearing off. Who is this post directed to? There are clues. I'm sure some will know.
6th May 2008
For the sake of a post I shall write one.
The language arts paper was terrifying. I only finished 1/5 points by the time 1/2 an hour was up (the paper was 1 hour long). I had been spending too much time doing the introduction. Anyway, I sped up a bit, okay quite a lot, and finished it with 10 minutes to spare. I couldn't finish checking though and after the test my vision was blurred. Ah well. I'll pass. I hope. Great I just reminded myself that hope is a symptom of denial. -.- I should really stop talking to me but I won't let me.
The history paper was fine. I took 56 minutes to complete it compared to some others who finished it in 20 minutes. I hardly stopped writing. Really. I finished four sides (same as language arts). Maybe it's just because I write slowly. I hope not though... I just hoped again -.-
Umm good luck for the next papers I guess, though me wishing you this wont help a bit. I'm sure you know.
The language arts paper was terrifying. I only finished 1/5 points by the time 1/2 an hour was up (the paper was 1 hour long). I had been spending too much time doing the introduction. Anyway, I sped up a bit, okay quite a lot, and finished it with 10 minutes to spare. I couldn't finish checking though and after the test my vision was blurred. Ah well. I'll pass. I hope. Great I just reminded myself that hope is a symptom of denial. -.- I should really stop talking to me but I won't let me.
The history paper was fine. I took 56 minutes to complete it compared to some others who finished it in 20 minutes. I hardly stopped writing. Really. I finished four sides (same as language arts). Maybe it's just because I write slowly. I hope not though... I just hoped again -.-
Umm good luck for the next papers I guess, though me wishing you this wont help a bit. I'm sure you know.
Sunday, May 4
Children Learn What They Live
If a child lives with Criticism, He learns to Condemn.
If a child lives with Hostility, He learns to Fight.
If a child lives with Ridicule, He learns to be Shy.
If a child lives with Shame, He learns to be Guilty.
If a child lives with Encouragement, He learns to be Confident.
If a child lives with Praise, He learns to Appreciate.
If a child lives with Fairness, He learns to be Just.
If a child lives with Tolerance, He learns to be Patient.
If a child lives with Security, He learns to have Faith.
If a child lives with Approval, He learns to like Himself.
If a child lives with Acceptance and Friendship,
He learns to find Love in the world.
If a child lives with Hostility, He learns to Fight.
If a child lives with Ridicule, He learns to be Shy.
If a child lives with Shame, He learns to be Guilty.
If a child lives with Encouragement, He learns to be Confident.
If a child lives with Praise, He learns to Appreciate.
If a child lives with Fairness, He learns to be Just.
If a child lives with Tolerance, He learns to be Patient.
If a child lives with Security, He learns to have Faith.
If a child lives with Approval, He learns to like Himself.
If a child lives with Acceptance and Friendship,
He learns to find Love in the world.
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